Foundational Restructure

It was 2 am when I decide to drop everything and leave town by myself. Was I running from everything I knew or seeking answers because I knew nothing?

The journey I was about to embark on would be one that changed my life forever.

Time was passing quickly. There were only 8 calendar days left until I would graduate. Graduation -  a time of excitement and new promises. Yet, the feelings I were experiencing did not appear to match. Instead, the upcoming chapter brought a deep sense of fear.

I recently quit my job. My job with a company that I adored and was honestly obsessed with. A place that I devoted my time and my energy into for two years. I've never known anything else and I honestly never planned to know anything else. All the hopes and dreams I set were to be developed with this company. Yet, things changed and I quickly began to hate the place I once loved.

I was left with only questions: How would I find a new job? Will I ever find another job that I love? How would I pay my bills? Who was I? What did I want in life? What did I value in life?

I was yearning for a deep sense of purpose.

For so long, I let others define me. I let the gossip my co-workers spread about me be my identity. I let the unfulfilled promises of promotions destroy my value. I lost respect for myself because guys didn't respect me. I lost everything I ever believed in because I crumpled to the opinions of others.

Now, I was on a mission to get back what was taken from me. But how exactly would I do this?

It was only after leaving everything behind, that I realized what was left.
Jesus.
Jesus doesn't get left behind. He is always with me. While such a simple concept, it reminded me that I needed to re-evaluate what my foundation lay upon. A foundation based upon other people's beliefs and perspectives of who I was, surely wasn't a solid foundation.

In order to build a solid foundation, I also had to re-assess the questions I was asking myself. I needed to change my perspective from "What am I living for?" to "What am I living from?". The "from" always determines the "for". I realized my "from" had to come from a strong foundation and that foundation would only remain firm through Jesus.

So today, I challenge you to take some time to be still and in that time evaluate what your foundation is built upon. Is it build on a bedrock that will withstand time? Or is your foundation built on shallow dirt that will cause cracks later?